Opportunity or sign of regression?
So a month ago, I moved down to the Southtowns, and went back to living with family, with the intention of saving money for a while and paying off some of the bills I've had for a while. Nothing horrendously drastic, but when you can save $500 + a month on rent and utilities, it sounds like a wonderful chance to improve yourself.
It is. It really is nice to be saving money again, catching up on things I was... well, not necessarily behind on, but not as far ahead of as I wanted to be.
But I had a fear when I made this choice - a fear that it would cost me something. And it has - it's lead to strained relationships with a LOT of people. For one thing, the teaching schedule I'd originally expected to have changed, at the last minute, and so now Mondays and Tuesday I am in the classroom both morning and night. Wednesday I spend usually recovering from that and then I try to get a workout in - by the time that's over, it's 11 at night. Thursday is more or less the same. Friday morning I teach, and technically that should mean Friday afternoon I'm free, but I've had to substitute one Friday, had to take care of family stuff on another... and the people I'd hoped to make plans with weren't available on others.
Sunday (yes, I'll get back to Saturday) I go and work out, then I am having to spend time getting ready for classes, and doing stuff for cleaning up my place (I don't want to seem like a slob to my family). End result - I have Saturday... after I teach, that is. And it seems like the person I'd like to spend Saturday evenings with is never available then anymore either.
My point is this: when I moved here, I did so because I saw a golden opportunity to build myself up financially, and yes, that is happening. I also saw the possibility that I'd find my relationships with people who are important to me straining... and that's happening, too.
I can't tell anymore, but was this a golden opportunity or a sign of regression? Because I frankly can't tell the difference anymore.
It is. It really is nice to be saving money again, catching up on things I was... well, not necessarily behind on, but not as far ahead of as I wanted to be.
But I had a fear when I made this choice - a fear that it would cost me something. And it has - it's lead to strained relationships with a LOT of people. For one thing, the teaching schedule I'd originally expected to have changed, at the last minute, and so now Mondays and Tuesday I am in the classroom both morning and night. Wednesday I spend usually recovering from that and then I try to get a workout in - by the time that's over, it's 11 at night. Thursday is more or less the same. Friday morning I teach, and technically that should mean Friday afternoon I'm free, but I've had to substitute one Friday, had to take care of family stuff on another... and the people I'd hoped to make plans with weren't available on others.
Sunday (yes, I'll get back to Saturday) I go and work out, then I am having to spend time getting ready for classes, and doing stuff for cleaning up my place (I don't want to seem like a slob to my family). End result - I have Saturday... after I teach, that is. And it seems like the person I'd like to spend Saturday evenings with is never available then anymore either.
My point is this: when I moved here, I did so because I saw a golden opportunity to build myself up financially, and yes, that is happening. I also saw the possibility that I'd find my relationships with people who are important to me straining... and that's happening, too.
I can't tell anymore, but was this a golden opportunity or a sign of regression? Because I frankly can't tell the difference anymore.
